Monday, September 26, 2011

It's Over

Less than 48 hours later she would be walking away from me with tears in her eyes and I didn't try to stop her.

  • What are you afraid of? My friend asked in a tone that was nearly accusatory. I didn't say I was afraid of anything. Knowing you're not ready for something doesn't mean you're afraid of it- or does it?

  • I could have strung things out and hurt both us (all of us for that matter- we each have children) worse in the long run.

  • Speaking of which: Zac asked day before yesterday,"When are we going to see ______?"

  • You don't warm to a relationship and get better over time if you had doubts- if you do, you don't know who you are (or were when that relationship started) and that's a big problem.

  • The same friend-girl I referenced in the first sentence asked what the other girl was like. After I described her she said,"You can't believe all that and just leave her!"

  • I did and If you are a decent person and the other person is more into the relationship than your are- you do.

  • Anyway, I'm probably too young to fall in love.


Paxford said...

Sending no advice - just HUGS


KatyDid said...

Doesn't sound like fear. Just sounds like you know how you operate.
Good luck...

el chupacabra said...


Katy- Thanks and good to hear from you.

Opus #6 said...

You have to listen to that little voice inside. I ignored that stupid little voice inside me for so many years. Until I realized that it was ME.

Your opinion matters.

el chupacabra said...

Lady O- Thanks. Yeah, I'm trying to listen to my shoulder angel more often.

Doc Feelgood said...

Sounds like a tough deal. Gut wrenching, in fact.
Take care.

Sherri said...

wouldn't it be nice if everyone knew what they want in a relationship and stuck to it as opposed to trying to change to fit the other person's desires? strong people who make those tough choices are hard to find and are blessings