were they able to come back whole and healthy and be able to visit with me?
My Lord, girl we laughed a lot didn't we? I told you then and would still say the same, "You are nuts- in a good way though" of course. I appreciated the fact even you saw the humor in your Elvis shrine. I saw more bad, old movies in those 9 night shifts than I've seen in my whole life and enjoyed every one of them. Yes, you were "somethin' back in the day" and still very pretty it's just that cancer and the associated treatments has never been known for being friendly toward a persons looks. Sounds trite and overused I know but, your beauty came from the inside anyway.
Your hubby loved you like no other and I doubt he would have fared well without your daughter but, thankfully they did have each other after you left.
Will never forget how embarrassed you were to get off the oxygen so hubby could help you partake of the herb the friend brought to help your pain. I didn't know what else to do either without knocking you completely out. I was just glad it helped your suffering but, to be so worried about my feelings and what I thought of you at a time like that? I was more floored by that than anything.
Usually when I get attached to a patient I want to be there when they die. I was relieved though I was off when you died, although I'm also sad I wasn't there for you and your family. I don't think I would have held it together too well and I need that control to be able to do my job.
I will never forget you and think about you often- my friend. Thank you for being my friend.
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This is beautiful and has moved me to tears....how special these people are to have someone like you in their lives to care that those times when that is all thats left......
I know I will probably die on me own with no hand to hold and no one to care......
You my dear man are such a treasure......
Now Im off to bed in tears over this beautiful post.......
like I aint got enough to cry about lol
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Marmi- Thanks. I Sat up in bed last nite and wrote 30+ of these stories. Bring a hankie in the future. When the doc tells you it's terminal let me know, send me a ticket and I'll be there to hold your hand! ; )
I a so in awe of you! This post is so beautiful! How blessed these people are to have you in their lives!
You're an earthbound angel. It's nice to know people like you exist.
Very moving.
You -- you breathe life into words. Words that live with emotion. You have seen life and death. And those deaths will never truely die with the words of the life YOU breath into them. Nurse-yes, Aide-yes, witness -- YES. You witness what few of us see, the wisp of human spirit that is within all of us. But in my little understanding of life, I see a gust of that spirit when I read your words. You are life's witness.
Sharky
Had to come back this afternoon and re-read this yet again.... jebus chupa, you truely are one of lifes angels... very rare indeed..
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Thanks everybody. I really appreciate it- means a lot.
PS I wrote another one of these vignettes this morning and scheduled it to publish 22 May. Part of me says there will be no more of same because it takes a lot out of me but, it's also good for me so we'll see.
May, bloody may?
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Marmi dear I'm wrung out from writing it and there may never be another so I thought it best to give it some distance from this one.
How close do you live to the ocean and do you go often?
(((chupa))) ok, thats understandable...sorry, its just, I cant get enough of your writings, its me being selfish, Im sorry...
I live about 10 minutes in me car from Langstone Harbour - 13 minutes to Hayling Island Beaches - 14 minutes (with my driving) to Southsea and Portsmouth Harbour - and doing the other way about 20 minutes from West Wittering long beaches and Bracklesham Bay....
Being just a few miles inland from smack bang in the middle of the south coast, Im spoilt for choice with the differences.... from little harbours like Bosham and Chichester and Hayling and then just across the Solent to The Isle of Wight... and along the coast a tad is Bognor and Bournmouth and Brighton....
Im not a summer beach person, to many people.... Im always at the beach walking in the winter months.... and I go down and sit on the beach near the old FerryBoat Inn when I need time to think about life and clear me head.....
Bracklesham Bay is just the bestest long wide beach for kite flying..
So, long winded answer to your question..... yes and yes LOL
Just a querstion for ya, I put your blog down on my bloglist off the dashboard, to follow. Now with that out of the way, You have alot of other post that come up -- what gives -- me can't get me peepers to them, like they don't exist. Example of post --Lyrically Speaking,Fridays Dispatch (not the early edition),missives(with the fonz). Have I been the only one not allowed come to the party or did I find the last Golden Ticket? Sharky
Landshark - you have to have a special ticket to view those posts lol..... jebus, you should of read the things chupa wrote about you in them LOL
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Sharkie- I simply don't know the answer to that man. This thing does all kinds of crazy stuff- even to me when i log in from my side- there are three different ways the page comes up so I can access it- never straight to dashboard like it should (and it does those randomly)
Marmi- Would love to live that close to the ocean. I think it would be good for you. I'd be a worthless beach bum though I'm sure. I also like going to the coast in winter but, it's more like a 5 hour drive.
No people. The wind causing the waves to crash on the breakers. The mixture of warm and cool air- surreal. I love it.
I cant imagine not living within a spit of the seaside.... unless ya had someone special to share the non-ocean with lol....
I probably go down to the seaside at least once a week and often 3 or 4 times lol when me lads gig in town I often drop them off and go sit on the beach or in the summer months go find a seaside pub and buy a half lager :)
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I want to say thank you for what you do. People like you ... caring and loving people allowed me to spent the last days of my daddy's life with him at home. Allowed him to die with dignity and to do it on his terms. That is something that is very special.
It takes a special person to be strong enough to let go and to help others to do the same.
Miz gina- Thanks and sorry for your loss.
Thank you for coming by the jell-o is working xx
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