"just shut down, drive away, run or hide and simply just go about being a person with a plan, on schedual making sure were ALL on pace.Im tired of being a zombie.take me out of this constant day by day routine.im ready for change, and i see it coming around the corner.But as i look at the good, why does the bad want to creep up, why when my hopes are up does somthing bad happen. i reach out for more when i just get taken from.I just want to know what you want from me. where do you want me. with whom do you want there with me. whats the master plan and when are you going to fill me in.Just running through my mind.I went through the clouds today, and i saw your promise in the sky a rainbow just hovering over the metal mass i was in. i know your out there somewhere out there. i just need your help.This vacation i was on with shaun and my family was total chaos.I am the black sheep, is that bad? or is that good?i just feel so drained and in this state of mind that is sooo melancholy.someone cheer me up.Im human just like everyone im not always happy. but boy do i wish i was."
From blog I stumbled across- sorry I didn't link to it or record the title.