Monday, August 8, 2016

Monday's Missives

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  • Yesterday (today is 07/07/2016) I bumped into an old co worker.  She was one of those people who after 4-5 failed and abusive marriages discovered God and self help books- both of which are great- until you start beating people down with them. While I cannot say she was hated at the old job- she defininitely got on peoples nerves and she was set up to fail a few times. I felt sorry for her and used my influence to get people to back off. Yesterday, I remembered why she was so disliked. She makes an attempt at maintaining eye contact which turns into a stare down. She moves in close in an attempt to close the emotional distance but intrudes severely in your personal space. She asks you all about yourself to try and make you feel like you are the most important thing in the world at that moment but it makes you feel like you are being interrogated and you sense everything you say will come back to haunt you...
  • It was a whippin'.
  • Another connected thought: after not seeing her for many years and not even thinking of her for several years she crossed my mind recently. I thought about our interactions and how people treated her. I wondered where she was and what she was doing etc. It even crossed my mind how odd it was that I had not bumped into her through the years as when we were co workers while we were off duty we crossed paths frequently. For example, I rememember seeing her in multiple restaraunts and stores and bumping into her in Wal Mart parking lot- two times. It made me wonder, Is she even still alive? (she is quite a bit older than me). Although the subject changed, just last week during break room talk at lunch I almost used her to illustrate a point I was making; and then yesterday I bump into her. What am I supposed to do with those situations? Is that a God-thing that I am supposed to react to?
  • Last night I started Evil Dead 2 which I am nearly sure I have never seen before. Well, to be more correct- I have definitely never seen the whole thing before.
  • In another life I had multiple friends whom I could turn to when lonely. Some were older, some were younger, some were male and some female but there were several of us who knew we could turn to each other when needed. We could call or text and say, I don't want to be alone. Do you want to go ________? I don't have that anymore and I am not sure exactly why.
  • Cringe compilation- Dating On Demand


TommyBoy said...

Well, I don't know about you, but in my case the lack of friends/family is a function of a wandering lifestyle and the ability to outlive the bastards.

el chupacabra said...

Ha! Good one. On a loosely connected note- You made me think of this old (badly constructed) Latin phrase: Illegitimi non carborundum.