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Thursday, October 20, 2022

Thursday's Thoughts



    The woman reclining in the boat is Kay Laurell. She was a Vaudeville performer and actor of the silent film era. Months after this picture was made she would be dead of what was first reported as pneumonia. We now know she died in childbirth.




  • The power went out this afternoon as I started getting supper ready to cook.
  • Had to go get takeout.
  • Heartbreaking.
  • How do you survive power outage in Texas heat? Go outside and play in the sprinkler.
  • Saw a Marine at dinner tonight and as usual picked up his tab without letting him know who took care of it. Interestingly, I could tell from the conversation I overheard the woman he was with was a date and not a spouse and she was obviously impressed.
  • You're welcome staff sergeant.

Monday, July 12, 2021

Ages Old Draft Clean Up Post

Grandfather and grandmother. Maybe the reason blues music is so ingrained in my soul- honestly. I mean really, if just looking at them doesn't just put a beat-down on you, I don't know what would. She looks like a harder, more beaten version of my mom and I would know those hands anywhere.



  • Occasionally in my hospice nursing when I'm relieving another nurse she'll say something like, Oh, I've heard so much about you! and want to draw out report and visit and obviously try to figure out what makes me tick.
  • I don't fall for it anymore- they are trying to steal my Mojo.
  • Hospice nursing is the best nursing ever for the simple, relatively ego less exchange of teaching between nurses to improve patient care- hands down, no discussion. It's one aspect that would make it hard to leave if the time came.
  • The adolescent deer is still living near the pond. If the water holds I will put a mineral block out to keep it going until the acorns and pecans make. There is a little browse and will be plenty if we get a little more rain which will come. Then we'll get sick of all the rain...
  • It's the reddest white tail deer I've ever seen with an unbelievably long tail.
  • My teenager bumped the thermostat down so low the other night Zac woke up crying and felt cold as a dead person. My back was aching and I had to get in the tub to get the knots out.
  • I still love Pinky And The Brain and The Animaniacs.
  • Remember Rudedog?
  • The other day it crossed my mind and 15 minutes later on the way to town saw a pickup I'd never seen before with RUDEDOG in vinyl letters across the back window.
  • In nursing homes they always have Bob Hope, Randolph Scott, Laurel and Hardy, Abbott and Costello and John Wayne movies with titles like Road To Bali, Rio Bravo, Stagecoach, The Fighting Seabees and Africa Screams always among them. Twenty to Forty years from now it will be Pretty In Pink, Breakfast Club, Sixteen Candles, Ferris Buellers Day Off, Red Dawn and Young Guns.
  • Interesting to come back and see this one- I haven't done hospice in years. We'll see where we are at when it publishes.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Meet My People


Let me tell you a story- a story of poor white trash. The following vignettes are correctly related and true as far as I know and stem from my families habit of telling stories in general and sharing said stories with anybody- even kids who had no business hearing some of them.

The grizzled old farmer is my grandfather born in 1883 in Scott County Arkansas. The picture would have been taken in Melissa TX where dad was born. There is an old family story that one time grandfather killed a cow and after butchering it, took the meat around to the neighbors and sold cuts. A hound dog followed the wagon home and was adopted by the kids. One of granddad's last requests was to be taken to the cemetery in a wagon pulled by a white horse. Uncle Cornelius made it happen. My dad told me when he went to the funeral he didn't own any shoes so he ran behind the wagon from shade tree to shade tree to get some relief from the hot surface of the road.

To your far left is my uncle Cornelius (also called Neal). He worked at rock crushers in the Chico area for years. We never liked him as he was mean to his wife who was a favorite aunt. He was also dismissive of my dad who we thought was way better than him. I was also aware Cornelius was only a private during the war and dad was not only a sergeant but became a drill sergeant after the war.

 Sitting beside him is aunt Rilla.  Rilla taught me how to fish. Oddly, I still have some of her old fishing tackle and a scar on my thumb from cutting fish hooks off an old trotline she gave me. As I think about these memories I can smell her tackle box as plain as the coffee on my desk. 
She was married multiple times. One husband had a prosthetic leg. After his death it was left under her bed. Us cousins (as all of us kids were called) would go and sneak peeks at it and dare each other to touch it. Her last husband was named Bill. He only had one real eye. The socket with a prosthetic eye would weep constantly and he always kept a handkerchief in his hand to wipe his cheek. I bought a 1966 Ford truck from him for 300 dollars. He had bought it new and when I went to Wichita Falls to look it over it was straight as an arrow. He drove it out to Decatur for me the next weekend and wrecked it 2-3 times on the way. I recall him hitting a gas pump and backing into the guy wire of a power pole but it seems I may be forgetting another incident.
Rilla was raped as fairly young woman and had a baby as a result. She named her Margaret. Margie as she was called had 3 kids- a set of twins (a boy and a girl) and another boy who was older than the twins. The elder boy named Jay went to Vietnam. My parents sent  .22 rifle cleaning kits for his and the other Marine's M16 rifles. They also sent socks as, Their socks rot off their feet in no time! When he came home his mom would have to tap his foot with a broom handle when waking him for work because the first time she tapped his shoulder when waking him he nearly knocked her lights out. He would survive Vietnam only to get killed several years later in a car wreck.
All 3 of her kids drove amazing hot rods. The girl of the twins drove a 66 Nova. She loaned it to a boyfriend who committed a robbery in it and abandoned it in an alley in Wichita Falls. Her twin drove a 69 SS El Camino with a 396 and a 4 barrel carburetor. It was fast enough he outrun local deputies one night even though he had to stop every few miles to reattach the carb linkage. Their elder brother drove a 57 Chevy truck. They were my idols. My parents tried to keep me away from them.

The girl to the left of Rilla is aunt Bertha Mae. She died of heart failure secondary to rheumatic fever in her 30s. She weighed well over 300 pounds. She was an exotic dancer at a club on Jacksboro Highway that catered to dudes who liked queen sized women. As kids we heard about her all the time. Aunts would say things like, Bertha Mae would have loved you kids. She always wanted children but could never have any of her own; so sad... We felt like we knew her and that her spirit was always watching over us.

The lady to the far right is my granny. My dad told me she would whip him with the inner part (the bead) of a tire she cut out for that purpose. By the time I knew her she had whiskers which would scratch your face when she kissed you. She did not have a tooth in her head by then either. She dipped powdered snuff and the juice from it would run out of both corners of her mouth. One of her last snuff bottles is on my desk as a pen holder- I am looking at it as I write this. Her skin was as soft as velvet. Her hair went nearly to her waist and she kept it in a pony tail. It stayed mostly salt and pepper colored until her death and was really more black than gray. She washed it with lye soap. I know at one point she made her own but don't know if she continued to do so in later life or bought it. She could grow anything and the tar paper shack she lived in by the time I knew her, in Burkburnett was filled with plants. It was like a greenhouse. Mom would say, Give granny a stick, a rock to plant it on, a cup of water, and come back a week later and she would have something growing for you. After granddad died she married Paul, whom she met through a "Love Wanted" ad in the newspaper. Paul was known as a simple minded person who did odd jobs around town. He loved us like I don't remember ever being loved by anyone aside from my mom. He would walk around town and pick up small objects like change and discarded toys and put them in shoeboxes and give them to me and my sister when we visited. We loved getting those boxes- it was like winning the lottery. He called the little things he gave us, "play pretties". He gave us pens and pencils which were often personalized with our names and stationary and stamps to write letters to him. I don't recall ever being mean to him in any way but I wish I were nicer. He just deserved it. He was a decent and kind man- a good person.

The baby in granddad's lap is my dad. He had a third grade education and didn't get his driver license until he was 40 years old. He got his first job as a turkey herder at 9 years of age. He served in the Army as an air defense artillery man and more or less an infantryman in France and Germany. We have a cool picture of him with his head bandaged. He was at the invasion of Normandy + 3 days and fought all the way to Hitler's old retreat at Berchtesgaden. I asked if he ever killed anybody during the war. He replied, Well, you just don't always know. You're shooting at shapes really- moving shapes and they go down but everybody else is shooting so you don't always know. I knew though- that he did know. He crewed a half track with twin .50 caliber machineguns and a centrally mounted 37 mm cannon which were for antiaircraft work. I asked if he ever shot down a plane. He replied, Nah, never shot one down directly but 4-5 left trailing smoke pretty heavy.
He dabbled in dice but was an expert pool player and would hustle in pool halls around Fort Worth. He was oddly equally good at 9 ball, snooker and straight pool. When asked what game he wanted to play he would reply, Make it easy on yourself. When I was little, he took me to the pool hall on the square in Decatur and also a domino parlor. Old guys there would give me chewing tobacco and wait for me to get sick. I never did. The pool hall  was run by an elderly white haired gentleman. His hair was the whitest I have ever seen- literally whiter than cotton. For years into my adulthood I could recall his name but couldn't right now if my life depended on it. It thrilled me to be there. It smelled like leather, stale beer, old building and tobacco. It also seemed a little dangerous.
Dad was buried in the same cemetery as his father- the same cemetery where he ran barefooted from shade to shade following a horse drawn wagon that carried grandfather's body. I rode to that cemetery in a new Cadillac limousine which the driver oddly showed me around beforehand while telling me some of it's specs.
At the funeral were multiple women who were way too upset considering the fact that no one knew them. Maybe coincidentally, there were also several unknown women's phone numbers in his wallet.
He was a life taker, a life maker and a heart breaker. I still have his pool cue. I still have the 12 gauge shotgun that killed him.

Two things I learned writing this: Rilla is buried in an unmarked grave as her headstone was blown away in a tornado. There is a child named Randal missing from the picture- he only lived one month. Why were we never told about Randal? Yes, children died all the time back then- but stories would be told and they would be remembered- especially in a storytelling family. Was the memory just too painful- too heartbreaking? Did the birth nearly kill granny?

 The two things I think of as I write this are:
Some things you just can't make up. 
Did any of these people ever think their lives would play out how they did?

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Wednesday's Digressions

I like this awning leading into the lodge. It looks like something my old timey social betters would walk under to go have martinis, ballroom dance, light cigars with 100 dollar bills and make plans to kill all the poor people.
  • A meta-modern country cover of When In Rome's The Promise by Sturgill Simpson. Yes, it is amazing.
  • There is an orange on my desk that has been there for 2+ weeks. It is hard as a rock, wrinkly and shrinking more every day. My intention is to leave it here until it draws too much attention to us and under pressure I have to chunk it.

    A rather odd display in Tucker Tower. I know the tower is made of stone and the mortar for said stone needed to  be mixed but really- it is just an old mixer and it is overwhelming this space.

    and not least of which- it is obstructing this view.
  • My bank card has been the subject of a possible breach- again.
  • A very English guy named Oliver helped me over the phone get a new card overnight. He had a nice voice with a beautiful British accent. It made me wonder if he faked it to smooth things over with his American audience.
  • We are ridiculous about that. Hear an outrageous conspiracy theory in a documentary in a British accent? We're all over that. We will swallow it hook line and sinker. A personal interaction with a British person? They could look like Frankenstein's monster and woosh- off come the panties or boxers.
  • I mean really- we're weird about that.
  • Talk British to me baby.
  • Today is 01/22/2015 and I intend to drive North this weekend until we find snow. Then I will play in it and eat things like grilled cheese and chocolate pie and drink hot chocolate and coffee like there is no tomorrow and hopefully get snowed in and not be able to go to work- for a week.
  • I will probably get smashed by a snow plow.
    Smart structure built from a culvert that was split up the middle and formed just right to provide privacy.  Yikes- I go around taking pics of men's restrooms...

    Old guys do like their metal detectors

    This is called Elephant Rock. Try as I might I could not figure out how it got that name until the interpreter told me it looks like an elephant- viewed from the air.
  • It is 01/24/2015 and we're packing to head North. Tragically, there will be no snow- only sunny skies.
  • 01/27/2015 a headline on my new browser said something to the effect of, Glitch causes hour long outage of Facebook. Omigawd! The humanity.
  • PS: It is 01/28/2015 and I read yesterday there were multiple cases of 911 calls being made to report the aforementioned outage.
  • Good grief.



Friday, March 6, 2015

Friday's Dispatch


View out your window of the cabins at Lake Murray. Ha, I got you- it is a painting silly.
  • Lena Dunham is pervasive and even refers to herself as a celebrity. I do not know who, what or why she is- and I'm OK with that.
  • The Treaty Of Tripoli is a fascinating document and I'm surprised it doesn't cause more of a stir.
    Mastodon tusk

    Cylindrical shaped fossils are the stems of an ancient relative of lilies.
  • It was 16 degrees this (01/08/2015) morning. My son left his coat at school. That was one long, cold drive until the truck warmed and walk to class for him I bet.
  • There were signs on the road last night, " Road crews preparing for winter conditions- expect delays." In the past the state and local governments got caught with their pants down when they should have known conditions would be bad and prepared accordingly. Now, they go on a freakout and prepare for an Iceocalypse whenever a cool breeze blows. There wasn't any precipitation in the overnight forecast. It wasn't going to happen- not a chance was there going to be icy conditions on the roads.
  • Next year conditions will be right and there will absolutely be weather coming that needs preparation for a massive response and officials will shrug and say, Last year we had roads prepped and materials stockpiled and paid workers overtime to be on standby- for nothing. Meh.
  • What is wrong with us?
    This

    is covered with this. Stupid.
  • Women: one of the few things I know about them is if you don't want to argue with them when they want to fight- they assume they've won and you knew you were wrong all along.




    My ginger daughter is a natural at skateboarding.
  • The number of Bill Cosby's accusers stand at something like 30-31 now. The sheer number, the perceived credibility of most, the number who have something to lose- by making the allegations, the variation in backgrounds and strata of the accusers and the fact I haven't heard a dollar figure that any of them want make me think- he is guilty as sin.
  • A bonus: his holier than thou attitude always seemed at best disingenuous to me especially as it has long been known he was not faithful to his wife. Another thing about this issue- I looked the rape subject up a minute ago for the first time. Otherwise, I have only relied on random newscasts and reading one or two blurbs by the accusers so I am not overly saturated on the subject making me think he seems guiltier than he is.
  • Once I saw in print the question asked, "What did he use to drug them?" to which no good answer was provided. I'll make a wild guess- either chloral hydrate or dilaudid or even a combination of the two. The combo would seem plausible as accusers report the effects were both quick acting and long lasting. They both come in liquid form and chloral hydrate at least in the past was surprisingly readily available.
    In this droughty apocalypse in which we live these cleats are almost comically sad as a boat couldn't get within a hundred feet of the dock.

    Drag marks where guys have drug their boats down to the water.

    Animals have (probably) died of thirst making the trek down to the new shore of Lake Murray.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Thursday's Thoughts


"Kevin!" Somebody who didn't like me was being nice (and that is nice). 
  • Today (01/09/2015) as I drove through a drive-through of a Whataburger (pronounced Water- burger in the parlance of my homeland)  the girl in the window tried to flirt with me a bit. She took note of my state of dress (short sleeves in 30 degree weather) and said, Where is your jacket or sweater? Aren't you cold? I replied, Nah, I'm good. I'm hot blooded. She handed me my change and then said, Oh, you're not much of a morning person? (although it was fairly late in the afternoon). She realized what she had said and went red all over and tried to backtrack. I said, Its all good- here this is for you and gave her a tip. She was gorgeous- literally beautiful. I don't know her story but could make some guesses. She was covered in tattoos. She seemed smart, funny and personable but not as any of them those as she had probably been in the past. Something derailed her. She didn't belong there but maybe kind of did... 
    Everybody in the house got sick this past winter. It was a challenge- but I pulled everybody through somehow. Half the time we were in Benadryl induced comas the other half  we were wandering aimlessly at 2 in the morning tweeked out on pseudephedrine.

    So a foreign born patient asks, Do you like fresh coconut? You answer- Of course! She reaches into her purse with her dirty hand and pulls this out and hands it to you. What do you do? You make a big deal of thanking her for thinking of you, let her see you place it on a paper towel on your desk and tell her you'll eat it on break of course.




  • Yesterday (01/13/2015) I initial dosed a patient on some medications. Approximately 30 minutes later she said, Kevin I don't feel right. My face is burning. I feel weird. and then a minute later she said, Hey,  I'm starting to itch. Me being the smartest guy in the room and learning in nursing school that it isn't normal nor advantageous to have a burning face, feel weird nor itch, I quickly whipped up a referral to the emergency department and sent her to the hospital.
  • Although that particular case was cut and dried- a lot of what I do consists of knowing when to make my problems other people's problems.
  • It is 02/25/2015 and snowing like mad. The big thing now is talk of the 50 Shades of Gray movie. I won't watch it as it looks incredibly boring and dumb- even worse than the horrifically bad book. Soon though, all the news stories will be about people damaging themselves and presenting to emergency departments acting out the dumb things they saw in that dumb movie. Also, watch for the reports centered around kids and their antics after they watch it.
  • Think of the kids!




At Fort Richardson. Which of the 3 do you like?


If the air temp is cool enough to at least not be considered hot and your sodas are too warm, place them in a grocery sack of water in the shade. It will probably have a little leak or two (although you don't want it to leak like a sieve) if it doesn't- poke a couple of pin holes in it. Fill it a time or two and over a period of 30 minutes or an hour and your Dublin Dr. Peppers will be if not frosty- much more refreshing as the water running off and evaporating pulls some of the heat away. Someday you should ask me about how in my old National Guard unit we would expend a fire extinguisher over our beverages in the field to cool them.




Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Wednesday's Digressions



  • It appears we are going to normalize relations with Cuba. My respect for President Obama just went up a notch with that news. Aside from our failed drug war I cannot imagine a more outdated  and counterproductive (much less counter intuitive) policy than our prior isolation Cuba. It was motivated by politics- to keep from offending voters who haven't lived in Cuba for 20-50 years and an odd vengeance toward Cuba for our own failed policies and misadventures there. If we're interested in human rights- let them get more of a taste for free enterprise and at least help more Cubans have more US travel and trade dollars.
  • A related thought: The Castros can't live forever.
  • Another related thought: President Obama sticking to his guns and thawing our relations with Cuba will be seen as a great accomplishment that will help more Cubans in every way than our past 50 years of fail ever did.


    From brother in laws garage
  • An interesting video from ANNA news of a Syrian Arab Army armored unit maneuvering in urban terrain. Those guys are good. They must have a decent institutional memory and way of disseminating lessons learned and/or there are a lot of guys who have been on the front waaaaay too long.
  • The world lost one of my favorite historical figures in 2014- Hiroo Onada. Among my favorite things about him is when he came home he refused to cash his back paychecks and run for political office (although he was insanely popular). My maybe least favorite thing about him is in his memoir of his time fighting a war that was 30 years over he neglects to mention the dozens of people he killed from the time the war ended until he was repatriated. Norio Suzuki figures in his story and is also a favorite character from world history. He set out as he said to," find Lieutenant Onada, a panda and the abominable snowman- in that order." After finding Hiroo he quickly followed that up by finding a panda. He would be killed in an avalanche in the Himalayas in 1986 looking for the elusive Yeti and that is why I love him.
  • A couple of different articles I have read have wondered aloud if the US government is responsible for North Korea's internet outage. My guess is you would have more likelihood catching the culprit if you rounded up all the 14 year olds in San Mateo County California.
  • Israel has been catching flak for treating wounded jihadis coming out of Syria. The same people would be be calling Israel out for being monsters if they stood idly by and refused to treat them.
    No matter

    what

    we just need people to know.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Do I Have Toads Working Under The Security Lights Eating Bugs Or GRIZZLY BEARS?

Schnikees, look at the size of that poo- no wonder I don't have any bugs around the house. And come to think of it- where are all the birds this year?


Thursday, October 30, 2014

Psst, Want Some Ludes?

Yes that says what you think it says and yes it is a real, full 1970s vintage sample bottle of Quaze. When my sister found it in my mom's belongings she gave it to me as I worked in pharmacy. We made some good natured jokes about mom's high strung nature and left it at that. I could have told you I took them home as I wanted to show a pharmacist I worked with (his mom was placed on Valium back in the day for the sin of telling her doc she was a little nervous one day) but had no independent recall of where they were specifically and could not have found them without turning the house upside down if my life depended on it.

Here is were it gets weird.

On vacation I reached into my bag (a CVC bag I used in Iraq) for something and felt a container I did not pack and pulled this little gem out. The thing is- there isn't a chance I put it there- ever. It had to drift into the outside pocket of that bag by accident while in a box of other crap from the detritus of one of my former lives. 

The trouble is: what if an overzealous cop or an airport screener saw it ? 

Bingo! Book him Danno!, they would say as they wet their little britches in excitement. Cah-rap! I would say as I saw my various endorsements and licenses and freedoms fly out the window.

And then- I would become another statistic in the war on drugs.


Tuesday, October 7, 2014

In The Headlines

in London sometime in the past.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Thursday's Thoughts




New Russkie Commiemobile looks pretty good. Way to go Vlad.



  • Showed my son a picture of an old truck I'm thinking about buying to restore.
  • He loved it.
  • I love that.
  • A guy should tackle fixing up an old car at least once in his life.
  • Shoulder pads are coming back in womens fashion.
  • Rethink: "verb (past and past part. rethought) assess or consider (a policy or course of action) again" oxford dictionary
    2X4 Red Robin uses to hold their burgers together
  • I don't own a single pair of sunglasses.
  • To avoid scratching a very expensive pair of sunglasses I was wearing while working on a girls car I asked her to take them off and put them in my car. She took them off and carefully placed them on the seat of my car.
  • Crunch.
  • Hydroxycut products have been recalled and manufacture banned. I know the stuff isn't good for you but, I simply cannot tell you how many times before a mission in Iraq I took 1 of them and drank a Red Bull. I still have cardiac damage and have flashbacks from taking 2 and drinking 2 warm Red Bulls.
    Pic fail is a fail
  • "went to the gyno today to get the cooter checked after the BBQ..." quote from a blog looked at this morning.
  • Nearly fell out of my chair.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Thursday's Thoughts

For sale: Slightly used snowblower in beautiful condition. Ha! Oh forget it- don't know why I try some days.






  • The bad thing about shows like Intervention and others with the same invasive concept is I believe the layperson assumes this tactic is necessary and effective. The truth? This method of getting through to the addict is almost always counterproductive and will also almost always further alienate the person they are trying to help.
  • Any of these shows cause people to play to the camera and I don't know how anyone could reasonably argue that.
  • I rarely watch any type of reality show. Exception- Cops and I'm getting soured on it even.
  • A reality show I've never seen but, always seem to catch the ads for is Repo Man. Is that the name, where the guy and his family go out and repos cars on video? Anyway, that show will come to a screeching halt when one of those nitwits is gunned down in someones front yard.
  • Maybe it's just me but, people who are in such bad shape they are about to lose their cars- might be having a bad day anyway.
  • There is a cable channel now that's all reality shows.
  • I've known both the good guys and bad on episodes of Cops.
  • Do we watch the ones that follow celebrity lives out of curiosity, the desire to live through them or we want to believe our lives aren't so bad after seeing the train wrecks that are some of their lives?
  • The screeching sound of shoes on a gym floor hurt my ears and when I've sat through a game I can hear the sound for hours later.
  • I have an idea for a new fruit snack- dehydrate grapes then when you want a grape just add water!
  • Oh, that's a raisin?
  • Nevermind.
  • May 23- save the date! 

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Wednesday's Digressions




  • Some music I really enjoy that a little bit goes a long way- swing, big band, bluegrass, techno and a very little hip hop.
  • Is it important to have a motto for life? I think "It is better to be hated for something you are, than loved for something you are not" is a good one.
  • "Treat others as you would have them treat you" is better.
  • My children's first riding toy was the tricycle I rode as a child.
  • No that's not me in the picture above.
  • When I hear the song Apple Bottomed Jeans I can't get it out of mind for hours or days even.
  • You'll have a whole new respect- well, appreciation at least for Tom Cruise when you see him dance to that song in Tropic Thunder.
  • I believe one of the keys to a successful, long and happy life is learning to be spontaneous without being impulsive.
  • Recently FG gave me a kinda hard time about the way and number of toilet paper rolls I always buy. It is always one extra large pack,  one regular size of el cheapo and one large of a nice quality one. The cheapos are for me, the nice one for her and the three packs all together are all I can carry at one time. It is basically impossible to carry even one small pack with any amount of groceries and regardless, one small one won't last any time at all with four people using it so when I pass by Dollar General I buy the three packs- it never goes bad and call me weird but I for one don't want to live without it.


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